I want to Change the World

 I want to change the world.

How does one go about changing the world, when there is so much 'everyday' in the way?  How can I change the world when I'm struggling to make a paycheck while raising 2 teenagers?  How can I change the world when I constantly am losing my keys and forgetting to eat lunch?  How can I change the world when as an empath I get so incredibly weighed down by the mess that this world is in?  How can I change the world when there is so much that needs to be done, that I can't decide what to focus on first?

I don't have all the answers.  But I think change starts with a desire to do better, to see better, to be better.  Perhaps change starts with taking a really good look at oneself.  Looking at the choices that you have made, and the attitudes that you have carried from childhood.  Realizing that maybe the attitudes or reflections of the world that were foisted upon you during your growing up years maybe don't match the attitude and reflections that you need to have in order to affect change.

I have been there.  I am there.  It's not an easy place to be.  It's slowly shuffling through the rule book of life, taking a very close look at the rules (attitudes and reflections on life) that up until now have been cemented in place.  Realizing that the reason they are cemented in place are not because they are valid, or healthy or good.  But because generations of family before you placed them there.  And up until now, you have accepted those rules as being cemented in the foundation of your existence mostly because it was the easy way out.  Those rules aren't cement.  They should never be cement.  

I strongly believe that every single person should at some point in their life closely examine the foundation of 'rules' on which they were raised.  I don't think that it is possible to live a full and authentic life without close examination of these rules and how or if they apply to you.  Like a hermit crab who makes his home in someone else's shell, living within these guidelines that were built by someone else is the easiest thing to do.  But maybe the hermit crab has wings that he just doesn't know about, and could never find out about until he ventures outside of the safety of his borrowed shell.

So, that's my start to changing the world.  I'm venturing outside of my shell by closely examining my attitudes, belief system, reflections on the world.  Probably many of the pages that I'm shuffling through will be valid.  However they will stay in place because I have examined them and determined for myself the validity.   And to that point, in the process of my self-examination I have already ripped out many pages that no longer fit the belief system, attitudes or reflections that I have chosen with purpose.  It's been painful.  It's been terrifying.  It's been freeing.